Sarah is 4

Here is a famous Sarah Ward quote... it was really an accident Mother......I am amazed at all of the changes i have seen in this little girl in the past 18 mo.. She has gone from a toddler to a preschooler in a matter of minutes.. She finally has Hair....not that she lets Me do anything with it that is a previledge she allows only her big sister to have not MOM...

Sarah is a girly girl... with a hint of brothers in her.. She loves to wear dresses .Pink is course is her favorite color and she is definently a daddys girl and likes her mommy sometimes Sarah can dish out the wrestling when it come to her 3brothers and she can never have to many babies ..what can i say she is a 100% girl..

We have loved having Sarah in our family its been a nice change from having 3boys in a row and then getting another little sweet girl Heather has wanted a little sister since she was 4 its been alot of fun having Sarah..

10 Years Ago.

Happy Birthday....

Matthew looked like this 10 years ago. This photo doesnt do it justice When Matthew was born he had white peach fuz down his little cheek bones he reminded me of a little old man.. His first year of life was rough. at 2weeks he had bronchitus which took him forever to get over.. and then at six months during a rountine check up they discovered he was really low on iron and they could not figure out why... so for a spell he started to become healthy and then the unthinkable happend..

When he was 10months old we a took him for a ear infection and the doc. noticed that he had a large mass on his left side and ordered a xray so we had to feed him some contrast after the xray the next step was and ultra sound i remember the diognois like it was yesterday its CANCER i said what how can a 10 month old baby have cancer.. Can you say neroblastoma.. yeah it took us a while to learn how to say it so we went to columbia Childerns hospital and they took good care of us..of course the first 48 hrs were the worst and did i mention this happend on my husbands birthday Dec 23 poor matthew spent his first Chirstmas pretty much sedated i think i really hated that Christmas not being with my other childern Heather and Jeremy who was only 3 so to make a long story short he needed only 4 rounds of chemo to shrink the tumor we were really blessed the caner had not spread through his little body and luckly the tumor was discoverd before his 1st birthday otherwise his chances would have been cut in half so i guess you can call him our little mircle child....We have been so blessed to have him he is such a sweet- very imanginative boy who loves everyone if you ever need a friend there is always matthew...check back soon for some picture of him through the years..

Not in the Blogging Mood...

I havent much to blog about lately or so it seems ..
Since Nov i have had a hard time feeling at peace and its been diffcult moving on...So January came and i decided that i was going to make some changes.. First of all i am not a goal setting or list making kind of person but i was tired of living a messy house and not being able to accomplish anything or have any time to do things i enjoy so as of January 1st i have been working my buns off trying to get my house in order at first it was really hard to notice any improvement but now its easier to clean for instance this morning i cleaned up the living room and i am glad to say there wasnt a huge mess that has been sitting there for days just a little one left over from last night and it only took a couple of minuts..and my kitchen has been the same way and the rest of my house is caught up.. you know there is the daily mess and laundry but i am glad to say that i am enjoying my new found free time and what am doing with it.. my other goals. practing the piano which i hope with piano lessons this year i can move forward.. reading my scriptures and just enjoying my clean house

New background...

Well i decided to do a new back ground.. but look what happened i no longer have a picture of my family or a favorite blog list can some come and rescue me PLEASE...... so i guess for now if you want me to check out your blog you have to leave a comment so i can click on your name just until i get it figured out..

HAPPY NEW YEAR ....2008

This was sent to me in an email by L

My Wish for You in 2008
May peace break into your house and may thieves come to steal your debts. May the pockets of your jeans become a magnet for $100 bills. May love stick to your face like Vaseline and may laughter assault your lips! May your clothes smell of success like smoking tires and may happiness slap you across the face and may your tears be that of joy. May the problems you had vanish! In simple words ............
May 2008 be the best year of your life!!!

PRETTY CHRISTMAS WREATH

I just had to post this wonderful wreath that i made in Enrichment Mtg..This is actually the first project that came home completed and it turned out beautiful if i say so myself and yes its actually hanging on the wall.

TAGGED TWICE

Thanks to Rebecca S and Tara L ---(they better leave comments please...;)
I have been tagged at first i thought i have nothing interesting to say about me and then i thought i could tell you all about my quirks but that isn't really fun either so as i thought about this for a long time i finally came up with a few...so here we go..

NEWLYWED STORIES
#1.. Back in 1994 Wally and i were married in the Chicago Ill Temple so we decided to stay the weekend.. we went to church and you would have never guessed who our Sunday school Teacher was Donnie Osmond and it seems like he was a great teacher.. but don't ask me what the lesson was about..???

#2..so we had been married a couple of weeks.. we had the opportunity to be chaperons at Youth Conference well everything was going well until the first dance.. there were some other church leaders concerned that Brother Ward was dancing way to close to a young women (me) when they questioned my husband he said that we were married....needless to say they thought I looked like one of the young women..I was 25 at the time..

Now for the rest i might put up some goofy pictures of me up.... other than that i am not sure

Winter Wonderland..

My Talented Daughter took these pictures today she really has a way with the camera isn't she cute.

Funny...

Bryan was sick with the flu for a week so on his first day back at school here is the conversation he had with his teacher...

Mrs O'b; what were you sick with...

Bryan; Morning Sickness...

Kids you got to love them.

LIFE GOES ON......

Well so it seems ... i come to understand that miscarriage is a personal experience and i am thankful for all the well wishes/sorry comments but somehow that doesn't seem to help me understand what i am suppose to do next... i mean i am functioning but as the weeks go on i am feeling a sense of sadness of the reality of not having another baby... i am left confused about the whole experience i mean we were surprised to find out we were expecting and then have to go through a miscarriage it has left me pretty dumb founded..in the past i have always known when another little spirit was suppose to come us and now i am not sure of anything.. there is a part of me that says that i really want to try but i am not sure if that is the right way to go..i guess life is hard right now and i having a hard time getting in the Christmas Spirit..

Sad News

I miscarried.........

THOUGHT OF THE DAY...

EXPECT THE WORST AND HOPE FOR THE BEST......
well at least it sounds good if you are not going through any trials... to add to our interesting lives i have started spotting which is not good so i went to the doctor and everything looks good i even saw the little heart beating so i am still expecting for now and now i get to spend the rest of my days wondering if i am going to miscarry and i have to say i so cranky about the whole thing...i would rather hurry up and get it over with if its meant to be or find peace that this pregnancy will continue on....